The past week has been kind of a blur.
I don't know what I'm doing,
where I should be going,
or how to interact with people.
I don't know what I'm doing,
where I should be going,
or how to interact with people.
This past week, Adam and I ended our 7 year relationship.
It came as kind of a shock to me, him saying that he didn't want to be in a
relationship with me any longer.
No, this wasn't necessarily a mutual decision.
Now we are in the process of figuring out how to get things adjusted.
We have lived together for over 6 years,
have all of our finances combined,
and most of our possessions are considered "joint" as well.
We have lived together for over 6 years,
have all of our finances combined,
and most of our possessions are considered "joint" as well.
This might take a while.
This is just still such a shock to me.
I never expected us to end like this. A love story that didn't end happily ever after.
I never expected us to end like this. A love story that didn't end happily ever after.
I wish we could have tried harder,
to fix whatever he apparently thought was
to fix whatever he apparently thought was
wrong with us.
But, I don't want to force a man to be with me if he doesn't want that.
He doesn't deserve it,
and neither do I.
and neither do I.
I know my own worth.
We have separated and are just communicating logistics at this point.
I'm now trying to find a full time job, and an apartment.
For the first time in my adult life, I will be single, completely on my own.
I know that sometimes love just dies, and that is something that you can't fix.
But it still doesn't change the fact that I feel like I did something wrong,
if only
I would have changed something,
did something,
become someone better.
The worst part is:
I know that things will work out.
But, I also know that things will get worse before they get better.
Things will cause me so much pain, and I'm scared of dealing with that pain without him.
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